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Solar Haze
04:15
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creep inside
justify the empty sky
i walk around like nothing happened in my mind
redundant reasons reminiscent of revealing revenge repeatedly runs rampant,
rampaged revolution rotating around repressed relinquished desires,
remind me again the sovereign of slithering supreme suggestions somberly severing the sober day from the utterly painful world
i’m not really awake
i never was
only forced to live day by day like a walking corpse
people wear masks, mine is like a vulture
or like a parasite, i guess
who knows what my mind will imagine next
faded into the night sky
the memories of who i am
i’m the keeper of my own demise
confused at the color gray, i remind myself that i will not take back
the times we had will rot inside my head with me
disgusted by my own empty vision
don’t forget
all i ever do is let people forget
please don’t try to feel sorry for me
it’s my fault I know it is
burn the feelings off with the torch or your words
i can’t tell you which is worse
and whisper my name to reveal a truth i have consumed
bothering me, i hear the noise
trying to remember what it was you tried to hide
i hear the noise again
oh i see now
it’s your empty disguise
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Permanence
03:25
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(i watch the stars as i sit on the ground covered in glass my emotions never found)
i read through your bloodshot eyes
the lines you're constantly trying to hide
i’m sorry, i can’t take you out of your bind
your eloquently passing by
driving me to be enticed
reminded by everything you believe in
the reasons we walk alone is because the world neglects us
believing every lie ever spoken
i am just fine
it’s crazy i didn’t think i’d be in the position i was, but seeing your eyes in the moonlight let me know the feeling was true
i hate myself and i kept screaming i wanted it too
my voice cracks
when i’m trying to describe the help i need
i’m begging and scratching at the door that’s locked behind me
visualize an exit and that’s me
you’re inevitably the best,
your shortcomings bring upon something i want to help you express
if it’s ever too much,
don’t be afraid to let me go
everyone does in the end it’s all i’ve ever known
i dream about being able to lay by your side, and gaze into your eyes to let you know that you’ll always be my guide
i dress myself up
in every word you’ve thrown at me
lust into the world
the words blinding
i can't remember
the words you told me
but i am here, waiting for you to come back
don't try to disguise the feelings i try to hide, i'm empty
i say this every time
i'm lost without you by my side
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stopped
i often find myself in the brisk feeling of remorse
wondering if i’m the only one guilty enough to feel this
genuinely questioning my sanity as i stare at the ceiling i’m losing it or maybe i was lost to begin with.
not really sure who i am anymore
the only thing i really know is these thoughts i can’t ignore
benign beings blissfully sleeping breathing nevermore after complaining about the sunrise
i don’t know what i’d even do if i felt alive
maybe slip back into the mindset i keep trying to disguise
i’m sick of every single bad decision that i make
it’s like i know the mirror is dirty yet i divulge
in the disgusting taste
wondering what it'd be like to just stare at your eyes
an emptiness
but yet emotional
the thought remains a prize
something i hold dear to me
the ground shakes when i walk
but only because i lose my breath and i’m never able to hear myself talk
hearing it over and over again
seeing older versions of myself
do people really think that we grow up to be the future
or is it all forgotten hope
i don’t think i know
for once i’d like to be able to feel my skin
and not be reminded that i sin
for once i’d like to be awake
and not remind myself that i yearn for the death i embrace.
jump back into the lake
let’s drown together
call it chance
hold my hand
i promise this is all part of the plan
to die together look me in the eyes and think of something better
you’re my best friend
i love you to death
i know it doesn’t seem like it
but the only reason i’m like this
is because my mind won’t ever let me forget
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4. |
Cassiopeia
01:28
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5. |
Constellation
05:29
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perpetually
falling into a trip of my own design
losing myself inside my mind
a new cult, i offer up my soul
guilted to change my personal perspective
no one will listen, i must give you all my last confession
i’m so sick of being here
these words mean nothing as i stare at myself with fear
this beautiful life, lord i beg and plea
an offer to you, if you can’t save me
i’m ashamed, i’m sorry
please just save your sorrow for my lifeless body
at the end lies the endless light
will i never be apart of this life
hopefully i’ll be a king to one
otherwise i’ll carve my name into the sun
i’ll draw apart the times i ran away from you,
but it’s no use i’m showing signs of becoming used
the cold fingers linger with the taste of forcing you
i’m hurt dubiously showing the world the truth
i’ll draw apart the times i ran away from you
i did bad things no one but me knows the truth
i’m sorry mom you know i tried to hide it
but here we are, everyone can see inside it
(i’ll trade the stars to exchange my life for yours
smiling at me, delusionally
hiding it all inside my head)
i’m not innocent, this much i’ve sought
the only way i’ll be happy is if someone helps me rot
i try to piece together the lines i tore apart
but there’s no hope, i’ll have to cross the line, the inevitable freedom
i’m so tired of waking up
when i come to an end, hopefully you’ll hear my songs,
and understand this wasn’t a mistake.
i’ve been in agony for years
writing it here, begging to be heard.
i’ve become a shell
someone who lost perception of what’s real,
you let me get this way.
but no one would’ve guessed better because i know,
i just wanted a taste
formerly pressed by my own vision of god,
here i lay waste to the idea i sought.
i’m no longer me, please use me
until i cannot breathe
chaotic misery
the absence of our demeanor
i’m trapped with a new light
can you just let me live?
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understanding opulence
an advantage built on disaster itself
i've come to terms with myself
acting upon change
reacting to the breathing of the earth
thinking back
relapse, collapse
i’m not burning down to ash
pleasure in the eyes of this hindrance
leave this, believe us
burning down the ash
i must confess, endless bliss
collusion’s burnt down in ash of us
ponder me
hold the thoughts
i want to become ash, ive become obsessed with this
staring at the wall of flames
i know by now the past has called my name
have i found a way to walk backwards without shame
or is this what it feels like to hold onto nightmares
or is this what it feels like to hold onto nightmares
(holding onto to all my fears)
not the kind of creature i thought i’d become
but i guess this isn’t a hardwood floor either
looks like i’ll just succumb to the ether
tell me more lies like this to help me bind my life for the keepers
blistering conversation, the noise makes me feel pain
like nails to a chalkboard, i’m repulsed by the thought of change
addictive personalities around me
begging me to be whole again
this time i promise i won’t let you go
knowing everything around me will never be my home
don’t leave me alone,
i fear abandonment, the only love the world can show
thrusting deep inside my mind
vulgar visions offer time
i’m disgusted realize, operating with no disguise
disrespectfully bastardized, my brother left me here to die
gouge out my eyes
walking around with intent in my head
every single thing i write
makes people think i crave death
come follow me i’ll show you
that we can’t walk together without burying our filthy shame
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7. |
Intrinsic
03:06
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with nothing left to lose,
our minds are left to wander if it's our names we choose
closed off to the world, a word of chance
nothing besides the romance
a vision true to many,
i watch myself bleed
forgotten bliss, an army built without a peak
the sun glows, my eyes burn
i didn't ask for any of this
i'm sorry, but now it's your turn
brother, why? what's up?
i seem to stutter, can you keep a secret if i asked you too?
she's here to keep us apart
the moon believes it's lies, begging for a brand new star
if i walk alone don't try to change my mind
the sun glows, my eyes burn
i didn't ask for any of this
i'm sorry, but now it's your turn
i believe it's all here to make me hollow
don't tell stories about my name
with nothing left to lose
the moon glistens, nobody listens
rest in peace,
beautifully
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Happy Colored Pills
04:08
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shades of pink bother me
i close my eyes, and i feel defeat
the sound of catastrophic melodies ringing inside my head
how can i describe this feeling?
prescripted perspectives have become my dreams
diluted suffering
illusionary diversions
plague my life
i leave but i’m back here again
breathing thin
(i breathe it all in)
wonder why
(and then i wonder why)
no single hand
(i wish you’d take my hand)
to guide my light
(show me the pain inside)
so empty, and yet you realize
that this was what brought me here
your oceanic disguise, my reflective personality, a recipe for disaster
this crown of guilt has been bestowed upon your head
truth be told, i wonder if you still think of me, as i do for you
drug abuse, my true demise
born torn apart without eyes
no one here by my side
i didn’t want to leave this life
you can’t blame this mess
it’s really bad again
i hide it all inside my skin
i close my eyes
feel defeat
how can I describe this feeling
prescripted perspectives
in my dreams
don’t fall asleep
truth be told I thought I’d die with these
you say I shouldn’t hold these thoughts
but here we are with you writing them down
i count the days until I’m back
ashes fall
the room turns blue again
hopefully i will too
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Delirium
04:29
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the air i've been breathing lately has been so thin,
every single time i find myself counting within,
things that feel okay, i'll be fine without it
lost within the shame
because i met you, i've been lost inside my head
i don't understand why everyone only wants me dead
because of these feelings, my thoughts yearn for the end
the empty bed i leave when i'm awake,
it's something i regret i can't. process the sounds you make
i crawl back to you
you'll always win
the grave shackles, my knees buckle
i can taste the guilt
i really am sorry, it's like my brain has turned to nothing
thinking of how weak i truly am, this body i possess
will it really be the end
wanting to be more to it
this beautiful sunset
my mind in a daze
light it up in flames
let's enjoy this,
or maybe make this up
i am not here,
shake me till i wake up
because i am the only truth that must be pursued,
walk with me, by my side
let me live
"your smile, it's the only thing that i can say i want for the rest of my life. i'll never truly understand what brought us here, but for now i promise everything is alright. even though my eyesight gets blurry every night, you speak, my mind wanders. the only thing i know is: i'm nothing without the comfort of you by my side. and now i'm left with this burden to carry on, and i know we'll never meet again, but i'll always be here, waiting."
the only thing i seek, i bury myself in the feeling
witnesses stay by your side,
but no one deserves the truth
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i’ve dreaded this exact moment
held back by the taste of it all
a bitterness left on my lips after our fall
swinging back and forth I leave behind
the sight a future just a weakening disguise
possessed
confess
your feelings left up high
you don’t care about
my feelings, hanging by a thread
i walk around
i pace around
lost forgetting why i came here
your name
my stomach turns
i hate the thought of ever feeling like this was just a curse
you’re such a liar
but even if you lie,
i can’t tell you how much it hurts without you by my side
i’m fucking sick of this
take it like you took everything else
bury me, all you do is lie
this fucked up city
all it knows is hate
everybody around me continues to be fake
don’t laugh at me
not a single sound to make
culture vultures picking up the torch and burning with their throats out
light it up
set my body ablaze
burn it down with all that you love
i never felt so fucking low, inducing vomit inside this putrid home
like a knife wound to the ribs
i’ve adjusted to feel disgusted,
when will you ever learn?
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Moonless II
07:32
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i said it wouldn’t matter, now here i lie awake
grabbing at straws while i feel my bed shake
isn’t it funny who we become when we sleep
we’re always alone, forever empty and weak
bring me to the shadows
hollow out the feelings
place it on the altar
it’ll stop the bleeding
begging for forgiveness
or am i lying to myself
i breathe when I’m awake so how could i know anything else
staring at photos of us only makes things worse
a sinking feeling to digress the thoughts that won’t disperse
i once heard you say
“i love the way you think”
everlasting life but only sorrow must repeat
told there’s multiple choice answers
to every single one of life’s questions
but can you tell me why it feels like i’m running circles into depression
hiding how i feel inside
the pressure is out
i’m stuck i can’t decide
i know, you left for a reason
but for now i am released
forever resting in the wind
i can now be at peace
utterly confused but still devoted to the sound
faking laughs and smiles it’s a gift that i have found
not a peep or else the guilt leads us to the ground
but trust me, that’s the goal
at least a token, to be forever bound
don’t forget that you’re the one who created this wound
nothing else diverts the night a truth i must consume
belittle my division, all divine, immortal tune.
first time i’ll ever admit you’re right, that i’m the devil’s muse
i tried to find the goals i seek through feelings that are evil
conversations in the dark
everything’s deceitful
beauty runs through every lie divulge the beast lets burn our eyes
i'm gold though torn to shreds
my mind a stone ,always heavy weighing down my head,
with all the tone shift a true believer
i’m the one and only true deceiver
i’ve relapsed
even though i said i won’t
i’m going to leave today
for i have lied a bitter one
the goal was to feel
a lie i told to everyone
but mostly just to heal
(a lie i told to everyone, but mostly just to heal)
blinded to every bridge i’ve ever burned
but that’s because the smoke has been the reason my head turns
opposition my heart glistens
yesterday a path i walk, while no one really listens.
bring me to the shadows
hollow out the feelings
place it on an altar
it’ll stop the bleeding
begging for forgiveness
or am i lying to myself
i breathe when i’m awake so how could i know anything else
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Nostalgic Dread
02:45
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calling back, time has passed
i’ve looked back, into my thoughts
with empty eyes staring at clocks
i had the energy to be
but intrusive thoughts blister me
collections of memories
bleeding through my white t-shirt
i wish i could fix this
but i walk in reverse, i'm no longer me
the ocean of light
but i’m a puppet, the man without sight
the waves, they call unto me
shadowfall has been here and taken me beneath.
you know, i followed the steps
everything you laid out for me
but why do i fall down
begging to be free
i’m oppressed
this should not sink
but here i lay red eyed, empty and weak
i listen to the wind
cool and collected, the sounds we make on repeat
ready to be alone, release me from my throne
a ton of weight would float above
float away with me
i’m trying to remember what it was we said
was it something i promised you?
a day to come to bed?
i’ll lie to myself
just a feeling i’ll forget
it hurts me to even look your way
the only one that faked this was your name
you even tried to tell me everything was okay
i'm disgusted at the thought of remaining awake
for your sake please just forget me
calling back, time has passed
i’ve looked back, into my thoughts
with empty eyes staring at clocks
i had the energy to be
but intrusive thoughts blister me
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Untitled
03:35
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i feel like i’m constantly writing everything down
even when i know that i should be walking alive, joining the crowd
i’m left here pondering if it’s my fault you left
or if i should just remind myself that these memories are the only real bliss
i know i’m replacing the thoughts of you with words
like i’m painting a picture even if that sounds absurd
i don’t know how else to deal with regret
i want to do something louder that I’ll never forget
contort my image of you with the embers of my remorse
i drank and i drank, i only ever felt worse
even when i know that i only want to die
i tell myself it’s because i’ve never truly felt alive
and no, i know depression isn’t something that i’m gonna fake
but all the world has ever done is take
i feel like i can’t even remember my own name
let alone my fathers face
the emptiness i feel knowing he’s still alive,
knowing that one day i’ll be the thing my family hangs onto of him
it hurts thinking about the people i’ve lost
so many words that are stuck between a frost
i wish for whatever reason i could help us put it all behind us
and no you don’t have to ever forgive me, no you don’t
i’ll be alone in the sea with my sorrows to help me float
the feeling that reminds me, guides me, hiding it all inside me
is it hate or is it fate
i can’t distinguish anything anymore it’s all too blurry
don’t correlate the sound of my voice that i leave behind
with everything you regret don’t summarize
we all have our chance to be better
the past walks aligns us feeling bitter
i worry that when people say love and hate are familiar feelings
that in reality i’m not going to say i’m a duality formed from the ashes of everything healing
i don’t know what’s worse
because i love to hate myself
so i don’t blame you i really don’t
because who would want to hate something they grew to love.
i just really don’t want you to forget everything that made me feel like i wasn’t a disappointment
especially because everyone always tells me to grow up
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Deliverance
01:17
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15. |
Ego Death
12:15
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white lights are surrounding me, i can’t breathe
the thought of this keeps me from sleep
walking around in circles the taste of this strip taints my sight I’m blinded
alone empty and weak, the clocks bleed
everything around me is pink
i can’t believe my feet keep walking towards the end of the street
the road blisters and boils everywhere, it's losing me, i’m full of sorrow, no speech
we forget the point in which we can return
i watch as the world continues to burn
leave me here with my sins,
an option of pure bliss
crept into my skin
almost out
the shine can’t keep withering thin
flowers wilt in non stop sunlight
time passes, give meaning to my life
i am a demon, adulterated heathen
oblivious deceiver cultivated by believing
question my desire obligated by the fire
hold that thought, the turning begins to transpire
take a deep breath, lost my mind
trickle down like water, i have nothing left to find
perverse, contort, justify your own court
take a deep breath
watch the wind
collect your thoughts, hold them deep within
erase everything i’ve built
knock down my faith
remorse fills my lungs with guilt
i feel my skin, tearing it off is my favorite sin
truly sought out to be more than light
life drains us, leaves us here to die
it’s the balance
collisions in my head
i beg to be abandoned
utmost divinity, the paper brings respect
we’re nothing but a disgusting hole
waste away with no regrets,
your desire means nothing to the fire
the road breaks apart again
a drought is caused inside my mind
genuinely cannot see with open eyes
lost in the woods, stumble upon guilt
(i want to be free)
i must reflect
i’m just upset
cannot accept
that i’m depressed
the sky is lined with a version of black eyes
belligerent controlling, bastardized intent
breathing bliss, born into this
you never let me live it down
i swore to you i’d wear this crown,
hearing every single moment of regret i’ve lived up until now, broadcasted live and burnt into my skin
i’m a living monument of everything you hate
don’t try to hide your feelings
i’ll die before i walk back into the dirt
you eat away at my skin from the inside out
i’m in pain because of everything i’ve dealt with
these words echo through me like material delusion in the woodwork
i try to hide the emotional distress
but i’m diseased, this life isn’t for me
everything seems like it’s being brought to life
the mark of forbidden intelligence, no single disguise
all of your lies swarm to me like flies, unholy divinity
the oppression built upon disrespectful desire
justify the ways i’ve been abused, i see through everything
even if i’m confused, the light blisters
my peaking has only just begun
double take, the ground shakes
losing perception looking back, yearn for more
counting the seconds as the sound of the ticking beckons
opportunity blessing my deception
mortal disposition, writing it all here
religious diffusion
looking at my reflection, am i infected
with everything you left
i am not going to lie hoping to never again open my eyes
at one point I have to admit that i was being torn apart limb from limb
everything that i’ve learned
i’ll take it with me to my grave
this is only just the beginning
a newfound reason to preach about every feeling i’ve ever faked
a newfound reason to continue this simulated game
i haven’t lost myself, or have i
and i’m just making excuses
confusingly grabbing at my head as i shake it,
i can’t shake this empty feeling
why do i regret so much
why do i regret so much
i am confused
i'm really sorry
i’m sorry for being me
i can’t believe you’d really leave
i’m sorry for being me
this ego
it must end
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